ponedeljek, 14. avgust 2017

Day 119: I change 2

Today I look over how my perspective of love, partnership and men change if there any change at all.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to decide to not look for partnership, but when one man told me that he like me, I'm in the moment in love on them. When and as I see myself to decide to not look for partnership, but when one man told me that he like me, I'm in the moment in love on them, I stop and breath. I realise that I want be with someone who like me, but each time is the same end, he told me how he in love on me and when is tame for meeting is he disappear and I react each time the same. So, I commit myself that when someone told me that he like me I stop and breath and think why he told me that. Then I look all points why I like him and try see him in the end like a person that is the same than other. I look for my backchat too and find points that is the same with all men I meet them. Then I realise that I can be alone and I still not need the men for relationship, because I must have the real relationship with myself and I must do all to made this relationship with myself good enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want be in relationship with men. When and as I see myself to want be in relationship with men, I stop and breath. I realise, that I need someone to give me attention, because I still don't know how give enough attention for myself. So, I commit myself that I work on give enough attention for myself with little things like walk where I like to walk, be where like to be, do what I like to do and so on. Then when I see myself that I need someone I stop and breath and find the point why I need that attention or chat or be with someone. I must see difference between be with someone and look for attention because I can be with someone and don't look for attention because the person next to me I see the same I am and sometimes I look for attention on web, that is the worst thing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I don't look for partnership anymore, because I decide that I don't look for partner next few years till I become stable. When and as I see myself to think that I don't look for partnership anymore, because I decide that I don't look for partner next few years till I become stable, I stop and breath. I realise that this my decide is only a short therm decide because I look over the partner from time to time when me and my body want someone and when I'm full of hormones during the month circle and so on. When is the normal day I not need anyone, but from time to time I will kill for someone to talk and be with. And this is that I'm not stable enough and I need more work on myself. So, I commit myself that in that time I stop and breath and see what me and my body really need. Then I really calm myself with breathing and ask my body what they need. So then I give myself what I want and try be with myself and calm. If I'm angry on someone I breath, then if I really need I call someone who listen me and know how to put me on floor in right way. Then I look for all points that I must do it that this not need anymore and really work on myself and became stable.

četrtek, 13. julij 2017

Day 118: I change 1

I see that we don't want changes, that we scare it.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to scare change myself. When and as I see myself to scare change myself, I stop and breath. I realise that people like to live life that they know it and we scare change things in our lives. We prefer talk how bad is our life than we change it on better. But this change is only small step, but for people who must made change is big jump. So, I commit myself that I jump, I made changes in my life, because it will be better.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to scare change, because I don't know what change brings to me. When and as I see myself to scare change, because I don't know what change brings to me, I stop and breath. I realise that change brings to me change and we can change on better or in worst, but we stay people like since now. Changes change us. So, I commit myself that I begin like change, I accept it and see that change brings something new in my life and this is better than lay on the couch.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not to see that change brings in my life something new. When and as I son't see that change brings in my life something new, I stop and breath. I realise that each moment, each breath, each though is different like before. We change ourself each moment, we live change every moment but in the same time we scare changes, we want be sure what came to us next moment. But in that case we only thinking, not living life. So, I commit myself that I try live each moment, accepted new things, live change, accepted changes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to love looking change in nature, but I don't accepted change in relation with me. When and as I see myself to love looking change in nature, but I don't accepted change in relation with me, I stop and breath. I realise that I prefer look how nature is changing, how animals grow, how plants grow, I love to look how season change, how clouds change their shapes. But when I look myself I hate change, I don't want to change myself, I scare change, but I change, hears are grow, nails grow, we change weight and so on, but we don't see this little changes. But we hate big changes, we scare this big changes, but we scare what? So, I commit myself that I look change in nature, but I look change on and in myself too, because all change are beautiful and we must see it and realise it.

sreda, 12. julij 2017

Day 117: I change

Investigate more who I am as change. If I change something on myself. Am I change myself.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to scare changes. When and as I see myself to scare changes, I stop and breath. I realise that a lot of people don't want changes and so stay where they are and don't want to step in better way. But how is wrote. If you do always the same, not expect that results was different. So, I commit myself to each day I step out of the bubble and made change on myself or I made something that I don't feel comfortable in first moment, but in the end was good results.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to don't see change on myself. When and as I see myself that not to see change on myself, I stop and breath. I realise that I live from one day to another and sometimes I don't see myself. I know, that I work on myself, but I don't see how much change I made and if this change is real or only in my mind. So, I commit myself that I don't worry if I don't see if I change myself or other people say how much I change myself, but only work on on myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to write SF and I don't mean real about what I write. When and as I see myself to write SF and I don't mean real about what I write, I stop and breath. I realise that often I write something that I want to be written but I don't think what I wrote, because I'm tired, have a lot of work, it's late or I don't know what to write. So in that moment I only write and don't think about, but other days I write and forget what I write and there are some writings that I take time and I write because I want made change on me and that writing are the best for me. So, I commit myself that I before write something think what I want to write and see problems and solutions or only problems and through writings find solution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to don't live word change. When and as I see myself to don't live word change, I stop and breath. I realise that live word change is react different is similar situation, but this react is supportive for myself and people around me. But in SF I scare to write real good correction, because if I react like I write in SC statement I change myself and there are change and I scare change and scare be different that other days. But yes. Sometimes I react different like other days because I see in that moment that I must do that. I live change in the moment and feeling is good. So, I commit myself that I write good SC statement and do what I wrote and if I see what I must to change, I do that in moment when I see.

petek, 30. junij 2017

Day 116: I am not pretty enough 7

I don't believe in myself and I don't believe in other that they believe in me. So who I am and what I think that other people think about me.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not believe in myself because I don't see myself beautiful. When and as I see myself to not believe in myself because I don't see myself beautiful, I stop and breath. I realise that I think too much and don't be in the moment and thinking what I must change on myself and so on. But I don't see myself who I really am, because I don't see myself. I commit myself to believe that I'm beautiful with all my problems and I be beautiful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not believe in myself because I don't see myself pretty. When and as I see myself to not believe in myself because I don't see myself pretty, I stop and breath. Pretty is only be who I am and fell good in my body and who I am. I commit myself to believe that I'm pretty and I can be pretty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think what other people think about me. When and as I see myself to think what other people think about me, I stop and breath. I realise that other people don't have time to think about me, they have their own problems, because I don't have time for think about other people, because I don't have time for that. So, there is not any reasons to not be sure in myself and be myself. I commit myself when I start thinking what other people think about me, I stop, breath and realise that if I don't think about other people, they don't think about me.


sreda, 28. junij 2017

Day 115: I am not pretty enough 6

But in the end I must to look in that way. Am I not pretty enough for myself or for other or I only me think that I'm not enough pretty for other. Because my mum say to me, that I'm fat and I'm not pretty I think that I'm not pretty, but what is being pretty?



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see myself pretty. When and as I don't see myself pretty, I stop and breath. I realise that I'm pretty, because being pretty is not being beautiful, only feel good in my body. I commit myself that I accept myself like I am.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see my body like it is with all fat and problems and still think that I'm beautiful. When and as I don't see my body like it is with all fat and problems and still think I'm beautiful, I stop and breath. I realise that beauty is accept all problems in my body and accept my body like it is and feel beauty in it. I commit myself that I accept my bod like it is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to listen other people that I'm so pretty or I'm not pretty. When and as I see myself to listen other people that I'm so pretty or I'm not pretty, I stop and breath. I realise that I must really see myself who really am and see myself how I really look like. I commit myself that I listen only myself to know how I look like.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I'm not pretty enough for other people and myself. When and as I see myself to think that I'm not pretty enough for other people and myself, I stop and breath. I realise that I must be pretty enough for myself and not look what other people think. I commit myself that I see how pretty I am and when I think differently I stop, breath and see beauty points on me that I'm proud on it.

petek, 26. maj 2017

Day 114: I am not pretty enough 5

I think what mean to be pretty. And first think is feel good in my body. And This is it. If I feel good in my body I like myself and I look like pretty. This is it.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to don't think before what mean be pretty for me. I realise that be pretty mean for each person different and I must realise what mean to me, when I think that I'm pretty and when I see other people pretty and when I live word pretty. I commit myself that I behave that I feel good in each moment and don't feel more or less or I feel shy/awkward.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to don't see before how pretty I am.When and as I see myself to don't see before how pretty I am, I stop and breath. I realise that I feel pretty when I feel good in my skin, I feel good in the moment and feel good in middle of people and don't feel lonely when I'm in group. I commit myself that if I don't feel good in the group, I go away and breath and realise why I feel bad and latter came back.


pretty



[prit-ee] 

adjectiveprettier, prettiest.
1.
pleasing or attractive to the eye, as by delicacy or gracefulness:
a pretty face.
2.
(of things, places, etc.) pleasing to the eye, especially without grandeur.
3.
pleasing to the ear:
a pretty tune.
4.
pleasing to the mind or aesthetic taste:
He writes pretty little stories.
5.
(often used ironically) fine; grand:
This is a pretty mess!
6.
Informal. considerable; fairly great:
This accident will cost him a pretty sum.
7.
Archaic or Scot.. brave; hardy.
nounplural pretties.
8.
Usually, prettiespretty ornaments, clothes, etc.
9.
a pretty person:
Sit down, my pretty.
adverb
10.
fairly or moderately:
Her work was pretty good.
11.
quite; very:
The wind blew pretty hard.
12.
Informal. prettily.
verb (used with object)prettied, prettying.
13.
to make pretty; improve the appearance of (sometimes followed byup):
to pretty oneself for a party; to pretty up a room.
Idioms
14.
sitting pretty, Informal.
  1. in an advantageous position.
  2. well-to-do; successful.




Who I am as word pretty?
I am person who behave good and feel good in each situation. I like myself and all people see this, so all people see how pretty I am, but not because I'm pretty, but because I feel it and live it. 

četrtek, 18. maj 2017

Day 113: I am not pretty enough 4

A few days ago I dress a close-fitting t-shirt after a one ear or more and I feel nice in it. After a good news I feel better. So when I have meeting I feel so good and I can start conversation fast and I was the most outspoken person in group. I feel pretty. And I was nervous, but this is other story.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not feel pretty so much time, because I don't like my body. When and as I see myself to not feel pretty so much time, because I don't like my body, I stop and breath. I realise that I hate my body because I don't feel good in it. I don't lost so much kg or cm, but I feel much better in my skin. I feel that I can change myself in better way and only me can do this. I commit myself that I dress myself in that kind of dresses that I feel good in it, because all people around me can see how I feel.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I don't deserve like myself because I don't like my body. When and as I see myself to think that I don't deserve like myself because I don't like my body, I stop and breath. I realise that I'm not only my body and love/like myself is not only like/love my body, but accept myself, my attitude, my speaking, my behave, my thinking, all. I commit myself that I see, that I'm not only my body, but my personality too.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think too much about my depression and what I must do to came back, but not really live all this. When and as I see myself to think too much about depression and what I must do to came back, but not really live all this, I stop and breath. I realise that I do all what I do in last months because I want came back, and do all because I must, not because I want to do. But now I see that I all what I do it was good for my mind and my body and when I see that I lost some kg I like myself more than before and I feel better than ever that I remember. I commit myself that I do because I want, not because I must to do.