sreda, 29. april 2015

Day 45: I need to eat and drink

Last days I eat too much. Never eat so much like now. All day I'm hungry. Ok. I eat first time at 2 p.m., but at 10, 11p.m. I'm so hungry. I know that I only think that I'm hungry and that I must to eat. A few minutes ago I look around my room if I have some sweets. I don't found it, so I drink water. Sometimes I drink a lot, but other day I don't drink at all. But in bouth case I feel that I'm thirsty. This problem with thirst I have a few years and I went then to the doctor, who told me that I'm ok.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think that I'm really hungry. When and as I see myself think that I'm really hungry, I stop and breath. I realize that sometimes we thirsty, but we think that we must to eat. So is better if I think that I'm hungry at first drink and in that way see if I'm really hungry or not. I commit myself that I drink before eat if I don't know if I'm hungry.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself need to eat sweets and other junk food. When and as I see myself need to eat sweets and other younk food, I stop and breath. I realize that I must eat more fruits and vegetables, but I don't like it. I commit myself that I eat more fruits and vegetables.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I don't like fruits and vegetables. When and as I see myself that I don't like fruits and vegetables, I stop and breath. I realize that this is only in my mind, because some fruits and vegetables don't try to eat, but I still I say that I don't eat that food. I commit myself that try to eat and then say if is good or not good food.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think that I drink too much or not enough water. When and as I see myself think that I drink too much or not enough water, I stop and breath. I realize that I listen more other people who say how much I must drink, not my body. I fell that I have dry mouth all the time, if I drink or not. I know that is some problem, but I don't know what. I know, that I don't have diabetes, but I don't see the reason why I have this problem. I commit myself that I start listen my body.

ponedeljek, 27. april 2015

Day 44: Constantly work

I realize that when I write my blogs more constanty, that I have less problems with myself and have more energy to write and work. Last days I write less and I'm so tired and don't want write. And for my lazyness blame sun and beautifull weather. But in real I am guilty, because I listen my mind.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be tired and lazy and blame for that sun and beautifull weather. When and as I see myself be tired and lazy and blame for that sun and beautifull weater, I stop and breath. I realize that I more often go out and work more outside, so when I came inside I'm tired and only look on web and listen and read what interesting me. But for write I'm too tired, so I skip that and prefere chat with other. I commit myself that I write more often blogs, because this help me so much.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed mysef blame sun and beautifull weather for my lazyness. When and as I see myself blame sun and beautifull weather for my lazyness, I stop and breath. I realize that this is in my mind and in real my mind told me, that I must blame things outside me, not myself. I commit myself that I blame myself or better, I tried do different things that I want to do at the first.

I fogive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself too much think and don't see what is in the real. When and as I see myself too much think and don't see what is in the real, I stop and breath. I realize that I think too much and I know a lot of informations, but I don't know how to use it, or explain this other people. So in the end is the best, when I do for myself and when other ask me what I do that I'm change myself and in that moment I explain them, not in each moment with all what I listen frome other people, but I don'tknow if work. I commit myself that I think less and do more.

petek, 17. april 2015

Day 43: If I give I have

In the last days I write about death. I share what I write in the forum and I bring back interesting answer that I start to think about it. They write if I take care for someone I can take the same much of care for myself. And if I look animals I can see in them somethink I can do for myself.



I forgive myself that I not have accepted and allowed myself see what I can give other, that I can give myself too. When and as I see myself to see what I can give other, that I can give myself too, I stop and breath. I realize that I don't see what I must see, because I do a lot of thinks for other people, and forgive in myself and look small thinks, that I can give it myself, by the other people. I commit myself that I see how worth I am and give what give other in the first time for myself, but in same time I'm not selfish.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not to see when I observe animals, how to create my own feelings. When and as I see myself not to see when I observe animals, how to create my own feelings, I stop and breath. I realize that I see in pair of animals love, but I feel when I observ them happiness, peace, only good feelings. How feel some feeling in my body I must remember and when I want to show other what I feel, I show with my body. I commit myself that I look and see what I must to see and show other what I feel with my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think that I can't fell a love or be in love. When and as I see myself thinkthat I can't fell a love or be in love, I stop and breath. I realize that for me was love is when you feel something special, but not more. Now is love when you listen your partner and talk with him, do all the thing together, do something for patner. Love isn't feeling, is way of life. All, people, animal and plants is equal, and you love all, not only your partner. I commit myself that start love myself and other aroud me.

sreda, 15. april 2015

Day 42: Bad news

Yesterday we moved our geese, because demolish build next fence where they are. Today morning mum found one goose is death, but other is missing. We think that some animal kill them. I miss them, because they was so funny and I love to look at them.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself miss this two geese. When and as I see myself miss this two geese, I stop and breath. I realize that I see them each day, or hear it. Sometimes I take them to the wather wher they swim and I look them. I coomit myself that I do something else and don't think about them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself miss geese, because they are so funny, but I don't. When and as I see myself miss geese, because they are so funny, but I don't, I stop and breath. I realize that I'm not funny, is only in my mind. They are funny, because swim in funny way, and do funny things, but all this is funny for me, and mybe for other people not. I commit myself that I'm real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be jealous on them, because they are pair and be together all the time. When and as I see myself be jealous on them, because they are pair and be together all the time, I stop and breath. I realize that this is different betwen animals and people. Animals don't need love, like people. They need other animal for reproduce and nothing else. Peopel need love for be together with someone and live together. I commit myself that I don't compare with animal, not jet.

nedelja, 12. april 2015

Day 41: My moments

Yesterday I went to the drink with my friend for one or two hour and came home today at 3AM. I want to meet only my friend, but I stay longer that I think stay at the first. I don't like loud music, but this time it's be ok, but I have fingers on my ears. In the real I hear more than if I dont have fingers on my ears.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself fell bad, because I stay there longer than I think in the start. When and as I see myself fell bad, because I stay there longer than I think in the start, I stop and breath. I realize that I think that my parents have first and last word, because I live in their house. Because my parents I fell bad, because I stay longer, but in the same time I enjoj in that moments, when I be somewhere I want to be and all is be cool, peace,... In the same time I want go home and stay there, but in the end I stay, buy band CD and in the some way help them. I commit myself that it no need think stay or go home, I must think what is better for all and I chose this time correctly.

I forgive myself that I have acceptedand allowed myself thinking about music if is too loud or not, and if I look like stupud with fingers in my ears or not. When and as I see myself thinking about music if is too loud or not, and if I look like stupid with finges in my ears or not, I stop and breath. I realize that noone look me, because all look band and listen them, and I am don't look like stupid, because I listen more, because I listen middle tones, so I hear and understand more in that way. And yes, music it was too loud for me, because I go in that kind of concert once of year, if my friends take me with him, and I don't like this kind of music, but this band is cool for me. I commit myself that I do what I think that is the best for me and other around me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking, that I am tone-deaf . Whwn and as I see myself thinking, that I am tone-deaf, I stop and breath. I realize that is more than one way to have an ear for music. You can sing a music (note), and listen each music (note), or you can only sing with someone else. All this is way to have an ear for music. So I have an ear for music. I commit myself that I think that I have an ear for music and dont think that I don't have.

petek, 10. april 2015

Day 40: Beauty/average

Today I look some video. There two doors. Above one is word beauty, above other is word average. In first all go through door with word average, but in the end all go througt door with word beautifull. This doors is for women and told us, that all women is beautifull. I go throught door with word average, because I'm average. All my beauty is in my average. Beauty is only word, nothing else.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking that women decite wrong, because they choose door where is word beautifull. When and as I see myself thinking that women decide wrong, because they choose door where is word beautifull, I stop and breath. I realize that this is their choose, not mine, and they have chace to decide and choose door that they want. I commit myself that I thinking about myself and my choose.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think that word beautifull is not correct word and I can't use it. When and as I see myself think that word beautifull is not correct word and I can't use it, I stop and breath. I realize that beautifull is word and only word and I can use it, but if I say that someting is beautifull I must know, that is somewhere something that I say, this is ugly, because words ugly is oposite of word beautifull, so is better than if I don't use this words. I commit myself that I use words and don't use words with fellings.

četrtek, 09. april 2015

Day 39: Driving car

Today I go with car in the capital city. This is small town with 260,000 people. So I drive behind bus, that go in the bus stop. In the end bus stop one car want go to the street, so this car want go in my driving line. I see this car and want prevent a car incident, so almoust go to the next driving line. In this moment noone be in next line. My heart start beating so hart, so I think how calm it down and start breath, but I think about this moment a lot of time.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself react in this situation and be scared. When and as I see myself react in this situation and be scared, I stop and breath. I realize that if I look what is around me, mybe I can see this car. I commit myself that I be more carefull when I'm in car.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not look aroud what is doing on, I see only car that want in my driving line. When and as I see myself not look around what is doing on, I see only car that want in my driving line. I realize that I must look where is other cars behind me and next to me, but all is doing so fast. I commit myself that I'm more carefull the car around me.


sreda, 08. april 2015

Day 38: I miss my grandma

It was one year since she die, but I miss her. I don't remember on her often, but today someone say me that someone that they know die and I remember what I fell a year ago and how I miss her now. Eight years, almoust each day I feed her and I put her in wheelchair.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be sad, because someone die. When and as I see myself be sad, because someone die, I stop and breath. I realize that a lot of people die each day, but I'm sad, because die someone that I know their relative. I commit myself that I don't grieve for people that I don't know.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself missing my grandma. When and as I see myself missing my grandma, I stop and breath. I realize that she is dead, but I'm alive and I must live. I commit myself that I live, not grieve.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself missing when and what I work for her and be with her. When and as I see myself missing when and what I work for her and be with her, I stop and breath. I realize that I miss what I do for her, not her. I commit myself that I forgot what I do and start living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking on her. When and as I see myself thinking on her, I stop and breath. I realize that I do what I must to do and when I am with her I fell good, so because I'm not with her, I miss that days. I commit myself that don't think on her and live my life.

torek, 07. april 2015

Day 37: My mind take a control under my body

A few last days I have problem with myself. I was so restless and I want to fight with other. All things bother me.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed mysef  want to fight with other. When and as I see myself when I want foght with other, I stop and breath. I realize that I must be more calm and do what is the best for all. I commit myself that I breath before I say something.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be restless. When and as I see myself be restless, I stop and breath. I realize that I can't be calm if have my mindc control under my body. I commit myself that I calm myself with breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that all things bother me. When and as see myself that all things bother me, I stop and breath. I realize that I don't want hear and see nothing and nobody that want good for me. I commit myself that I do some self-forgivnes when I see myself in that situation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that my mind take a control under my body. When and as see myself that my mind take a control under my body, I stop and breath. I realize that I have some good and some bad days and I'm not enough emotionally stable, so I must do on myself more. I commit myself that I breath and so self -forgivnes when I don't know what to do and my mind have control.

ponedeljek, 06. april 2015

Day 36: Problem with heartbeat

A few days ago I finish with DIP Lite and ask for sponsorship for DIP Pro. Each time when I see massage from someone from Desteni my heart start beating so fast that I feel and heard it. The same is, when I think about Desteni or DIP.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself react when I see new message from Desteni. When and as I see myself react when I see nev message from Desteni, I stop and breath. I realize that I react, because I want positive answer for my sponsorship, but now I know that I have it, but I still react. I commit myself that I don't react on any message.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself react on words DIP, Desteni and blog. When and as I see myself react on words DIP, Desteni and blog, I stop and breath. I realize that I have problem with words DIP and Desteni because sponsorship, and with blog, because I start writing about this two words. I commit myself that I have all words as other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be nervous, because I don't know if I get sponsorship, how big will be and who will be my buddy. When and as I see myself be nervous, because I don't know if I get sponsorship, how big will be and who will be my buddy, I stop and breath. I realize that I am nervous for nothing, because all finish ok, and they ask me for all, only for my buddy, but it's ok for me. I commit myself that I don't be nervous for something like this.


Day 35: Do fast

When I late, I start to do fast and in that moment I do a lot of mistakes, because I tried do faster than I do when I don't late, or do slowly. The biggest poblem is, when I do in my computer. Computer work fast, but in the time, when you want do fast, is so slow, that you click what you don't need.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be nervous when I want work faster than other time. When and as I see myself be nervous when I want work faster than other time, I stop and breath. I realize that I can work fast than other time, or faster if I'm not nervous, because I want do faster. I commit myself that I calm myself and then try to do something fast.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself do slow or other thing and if I want finish on the time, I start do faster. When and as I see myself do slow or other thing and if I want finish on the time, I start do faster, I stop and breath. I realize that if I do this faster from begining and I don't talk with other, I can start on the time. I commit myself that I do what I must to do fast and latter chat,

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself do slow, because I can't do fast. When and asI see myself do slow, because I can't do fast, I stop and breath. I realize that I can't work fast, but sometimes I do good. I know that in this word I must doing fast, but I can't and I don't know yet where is problem. I tried to do fast, but other people see me that I do slow. We have different perception of time. I commit myself that I work fast as I can.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself see myself doing fast, but in the same moment other people see me that I doing slow and if I doing slow I doing with the same speed if I doing fast. When and as I see myself doing fast, but the same moment other people see me that I doing slow and if I doing slow I doing with the same speed if I doing fast, I stop and breath. I realize that I have different perception of time and speed than other and I have difficulties with working where I must work fast. I commit myself that I use a cloock and look how fast I am in real.

sobota, 04. april 2015

Day 34: Last moment

Almost each day I write blog last moment, because I decide that I write it to midnight. About half hour before midnight I don't know what to write, and then I write last moment something that look like ok, but isn't, because I don't take enough time for writing.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself start with writing last moment and thinking what to write. When and as I see myself start writing last moment and thinking what to write, I stop and breath. I realize that I have time all evening, so I can decide what to write. Some days I know about what I was writing, but other day I don't have any idea. I commit myself if I don't know what to write, I breath, or writing about no idea.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself start with writing last moment because before I chat or doing something other. When and as I see myself  start writing last moment because before I chat or doing something other, I stop and breath. I realize that I chat too much and I think that chat is more important for me than writing. I know that other people told me a lot of new things, but writing is work on myself. I commit myself that I write before chat or doing other thing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself doing something else when I want finish last moment with writing and I don't know what to write. When and as I see myself doing something else when I want finish last moment with writing and I don't knoe what to write, I stop and breath. I realize that other thing is more interesting that writing in other language, so I doing something more interesting like look videos and photos or chat. I commit myself when I writing I doing only this and when I finish I have time for other things.

Day 33: Guilty

Today I was write in the Facebook that if you talk with one person and you fell bad, that is your guilty, not that person take your energy. In that moment one take a comment and I don't know how answer in that comment so I ask for the help. In the evening I talk with person that I want their help and they told me, that I use incorect word and they don't unerstand me. So I start speak loud, that I know that I guilty for all. I say I was guilty when I was young and my sister do something wrong. Always I'm guilty.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself speak loud, because I know that this person have right. When and as I see myself speak loud, because I know that this person have right, I stop and breath. I realize I must write more carefull, because some people understand what I want say, but other not. I commit myself that I don't speak loud, and if I see that other have right I look where is problem on me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not understand my parents when say that I'm guilty, because sometimes I am, because I do my sister something and she give me back. When and as I see myself  understand my parents when say that I'm guilty, because sometimes I am, because I do my sister something and she give me back, I stop and breath. I realize that I am older sister and I must take on my little sister when we play and be together. I commit myself that I understand my parents.

I forgive myself that I have acceted and allowed myself fell guilty all the time, because I hear that I'm guity so much. When and as I see myself fell guilty all the time, because I hear that I'm guilty so much, I stop and breath. I realize that I hear that I'm guity all the time, so I think that I'm really guilty all the time, so I ithink that I'm guity now too. I commit myself that I'm not guity if I don't do something that isn't good for me and other people.

četrtek, 02. april 2015

Day 32: Be tired

Last few days I work at home more than other days and I'm so tired. I say that I'm tired, but I'm only lazy and I don't want work.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself say that I'm tired, but in real I'm not so tired, only I don't want work more. When and as I see myself say that I'm tired, but in real I'm not so tired, only I don't want work more, I stop and breath. I realize that it must be done as soon as posible and I am only person that I can do a lot of that thinks. So what I don't do, my dad must to do. I commit myself that I work as long as posible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and alowwed myself lie other people around me and myself. When and as I see myself lie other people around me and myself, I stop and breath. I realize that I see myself what I can do, but I have other, more funny thinks to do, so I say a lie. I commit myself that I stop lie myself and other people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be lazy and don't want to work and help other people around me. When and as I see myself be lazy and don't want to work and help other people around me, I stop and breath. I realize that I can move my ass and start to work if I want to work and have some interesting to do. I commit myself that I see work and work.

sreda, 01. april 2015

Day 31: Talk too much

When I start to talk I can't stop and I want to told all that I remember in that moment. So. I must stop, told only what I need to told and shut up, because mybe is someone near who want to talk or I disrupt other because they do something else or need peace.



I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself want to talk too much. When and as I see myself want to talk too much, I stop and breath. I realize that I must talk only if other people ask me or if I want ask other, not talk all the time. I commit myself that I talk less.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself think that other people want hearing me when I talk too much. When and as I see myself think that other people want hearing me when I talk too much, I stop and breath, I realize that ifI have presentation I can talk, but in private talk I must listen other people too and quiet is ok too. I commit myself that I look if other people want listen me and if they don't I shut up.